i've a new pair of slippers now.
and.... A NEW PHONE!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! YAHOO!!!!!!!!!
turned out my accidental dropping of my phone yesterday was a blessing in disguise... my mum bought me a new one!!!!!! a nokia 3120. to be specific. YAHOO!!!!!!!!! :D
but sigh. next week's SAT. and i have duty on sunday. so basically its another weekend burnt.
:(
Sunday, May 30, 2004
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
going on another exercise tomorrow. ends on friday. then after dat i'll be doing ops duty so i wont be back till sunday.
when i take my second-last driving lesson (i hope) and hafta fetch my mum back from the airport.
saw two medics fighting today. ok, it was more like one guy threatening to hit the other, but in the end nothing much happened, i guess. was damn stunned. i mean, i never expected them to be so violent.
reminds me of sec 1, when i was like... bullied? by this guy once. was in tears man. i think That was the incident that prompted me to get fit. or at least look fit. (like i do now haha) guess its about... preventive action. its like u have that "come de zui me, i dare u to, im not f***ing afraid of u" look, people dont dare to bully u? appear nice, but 'show your power' sometimes. subtly.
haha dat sounds like its coming from some beng rite? perhaps if i wasnt born into this nice family of mine i'll be out slugging in the streets. and enjoying it. perhaps dat is y i like having friends who've been there and done that too. like this guy who's been to jail before. and have learnt from it.
but i guess to most people i jus appear as this nice guy who wouldnt kill a fly huh? heh. upbringing lah. i mean, after all, i Am a nice guy who normally wouldnt kill a fly. if it doesnt bother me excessively. (wouldnt want to dirty my hands too.)
haha ok enough of rambling thoughts. u know, sometimes i jus feel like im too mature for my age. so many things have happened... that shouldnt have happened to an innocent 20-year-old guy. sometimes i wish i could really be as innocent as i look. as cheerful as i look. as couldnt-care-less-about-the-world as i look.
ah, well.
when i take my second-last driving lesson (i hope) and hafta fetch my mum back from the airport.
saw two medics fighting today. ok, it was more like one guy threatening to hit the other, but in the end nothing much happened, i guess. was damn stunned. i mean, i never expected them to be so violent.
reminds me of sec 1, when i was like... bullied? by this guy once. was in tears man. i think That was the incident that prompted me to get fit. or at least look fit. (like i do now haha) guess its about... preventive action. its like u have that "come de zui me, i dare u to, im not f***ing afraid of u" look, people dont dare to bully u? appear nice, but 'show your power' sometimes. subtly.
haha dat sounds like its coming from some beng rite? perhaps if i wasnt born into this nice family of mine i'll be out slugging in the streets. and enjoying it. perhaps dat is y i like having friends who've been there and done that too. like this guy who's been to jail before. and have learnt from it.
but i guess to most people i jus appear as this nice guy who wouldnt kill a fly huh? heh. upbringing lah. i mean, after all, i Am a nice guy who normally wouldnt kill a fly. if it doesnt bother me excessively. (wouldnt want to dirty my hands too.)
haha ok enough of rambling thoughts. u know, sometimes i jus feel like im too mature for my age. so many things have happened... that shouldnt have happened to an innocent 20-year-old guy. sometimes i wish i could really be as innocent as i look. as cheerful as i look. as couldnt-care-less-about-the-world as i look.
ah, well.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
im back today!! yay!!! haha confinement wasnt half as bad as i imagined, and sgt richard, my senior medic 2ic, was damn nice about it too. let me off at 5 today.
and oh! i've passed my final theory test!!! jus two more lessons to go before i can book for the test!!! yahoO!!!!!
but eh 1 unfortunate thing happened though. i failed my ippt. 2.4 in fact. so yeah have started to train for it. i'll go for silver man!!!!
and oh! i've passed my final theory test!!! jus two more lessons to go before i can book for the test!!! yahoO!!!!!
but eh 1 unfortunate thing happened though. i failed my ippt. 2.4 in fact. so yeah have started to train for it. i'll go for silver man!!!!
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
so i've just got back from a day's duty at the medical centre.
horrible day it was.
3 resuscitation cases (ie casualties needed immediate help and had to be subjected to various tortures like having an anal probe inserted up their a**es) of which yeah i did the inserting. oh it takes the temperature there, which is more accurate than ur oral temperature, in case u didnt know. and yes, i Did see the various sizes of male sexual organs as i, together with another medic, did the stripping of the casualties. haha cant resist saying this, but im proud of myself. heh. haha.
Anyways. the point was, 2 resus cases came in the night. 10 and 12+, in fact.
which was not all. assorted cases brought in meant that i had to take two-hourly parameters of the patients. ie i had to wake up (and wake the patients up) every two hours jus to take their temperature, BP, pulse and respiration rates. dat started from 12+ all the way till 7am. and since there were SEVEN patients (the sickbay was COMPLETELY filled) by the time i finished taking all their parameters i got to sleep for an hour before the next parameter taking.
which means i slept for a total of 4 hours last night. fitful sleep. not the kind u'd wanna get, actually.
and i got no official rest today other than an hour early off work (for which i really thanks the MO, but actually made not much difference as it was spent on travelling). so basically i sleptwalked through the whole day, dispensing medicine to patients who came to report sick. (but at least i know i didnt dispense any drugs wrongly, 5 weeks spent there aint for nothing)
And after all dat work, i took my final theory test! cant say whether im gonna pass (everytime i say im gonna score i dun) but yeah! was still alert enough to take it. with the help of coke that is. caffeine and glucose= lethal combination.
and im not really dat tired now too!
but still. it was a truly horrible day.
and to think of it. i have duty again this friday. And next tuesday. And next friday. ok friday im not so worried 'cause most people would jus wanna go home and not stay in the sickbay *fingers crossed* but next tues... gosh im dreading it already...
horrible day it was.
3 resuscitation cases (ie casualties needed immediate help and had to be subjected to various tortures like having an anal probe inserted up their a**es) of which yeah i did the inserting. oh it takes the temperature there, which is more accurate than ur oral temperature, in case u didnt know. and yes, i Did see the various sizes of male sexual organs as i, together with another medic, did the stripping of the casualties. haha cant resist saying this, but im proud of myself. heh. haha.
Anyways. the point was, 2 resus cases came in the night. 10 and 12+, in fact.
which was not all. assorted cases brought in meant that i had to take two-hourly parameters of the patients. ie i had to wake up (and wake the patients up) every two hours jus to take their temperature, BP, pulse and respiration rates. dat started from 12+ all the way till 7am. and since there were SEVEN patients (the sickbay was COMPLETELY filled) by the time i finished taking all their parameters i got to sleep for an hour before the next parameter taking.
which means i slept for a total of 4 hours last night. fitful sleep. not the kind u'd wanna get, actually.
and i got no official rest today other than an hour early off work (for which i really thanks the MO, but actually made not much difference as it was spent on travelling). so basically i sleptwalked through the whole day, dispensing medicine to patients who came to report sick. (but at least i know i didnt dispense any drugs wrongly, 5 weeks spent there aint for nothing)
And after all dat work, i took my final theory test! cant say whether im gonna pass (everytime i say im gonna score i dun) but yeah! was still alert enough to take it. with the help of coke that is. caffeine and glucose= lethal combination.
and im not really dat tired now too!
but still. it was a truly horrible day.
and to think of it. i have duty again this friday. And next tuesday. And next friday. ok friday im not so worried 'cause most people would jus wanna go home and not stay in the sickbay *fingers crossed* but next tues... gosh im dreading it already...
Saturday, May 08, 2004
have decided to write something totally irrelevant.
i think the hair on our heads are there for a purpose. the longer the hair, the better the rate of heat dissipation and thus the better the functioning of the brain. why else would there be such extraordinary long hair on our heads, as compared to the rest of the body? i mean, we are the results of thousands of years of evolution and im sure if it didnt serve a purpose it'd had to be gone like a few hundred years right? or at least reduced to more proportionate... oh well proportions. by dat i mean yeah those pitifully thin threads we have on the rest of us.
so yeah, i think their purpose Is to make better economic use of our brainpower. 'cause yah. we need cool minds to think. esp when we're stressed. (and dat's y we sweat more when we're afraid).
and So, i've also come to the conclusion that it IS a ploy by the SAF to shave (almost) all hair off recruits. yeah to disallow the privilege of thinking to them. another evidence in point : after bmt, only sideburns and hair nearest the neck (and ears) have to be shaved off. for the sake of neatness? i don't think so. its more likely 'cause they're situated near our brain stem, where everything's already been pre-programmed into our bodies (ie automatic stuff like the need to eat and sleep) and basically we don't need to utilise it that often. so we can Still think.
unlike recruits.
and oh i think the reason y women with long hair are more attractive is their... extensive knowledge regarding the art of making up. they have the extra advantage of their hair to better think, and thus attract men. and oh jus for the fun of it i think blonde hair's more effective than black-coloured hair in dissipating heat. somehow.
i like smart women.
haha
i think the hair on our heads are there for a purpose. the longer the hair, the better the rate of heat dissipation and thus the better the functioning of the brain. why else would there be such extraordinary long hair on our heads, as compared to the rest of the body? i mean, we are the results of thousands of years of evolution and im sure if it didnt serve a purpose it'd had to be gone like a few hundred years right? or at least reduced to more proportionate... oh well proportions. by dat i mean yeah those pitifully thin threads we have on the rest of us.
so yeah, i think their purpose Is to make better economic use of our brainpower. 'cause yah. we need cool minds to think. esp when we're stressed. (and dat's y we sweat more when we're afraid).
and So, i've also come to the conclusion that it IS a ploy by the SAF to shave (almost) all hair off recruits. yeah to disallow the privilege of thinking to them. another evidence in point : after bmt, only sideburns and hair nearest the neck (and ears) have to be shaved off. for the sake of neatness? i don't think so. its more likely 'cause they're situated near our brain stem, where everything's already been pre-programmed into our bodies (ie automatic stuff like the need to eat and sleep) and basically we don't need to utilise it that often. so we can Still think.
unlike recruits.
and oh i think the reason y women with long hair are more attractive is their... extensive knowledge regarding the art of making up. they have the extra advantage of their hair to better think, and thus attract men. and oh jus for the fun of it i think blonde hair's more effective than black-coloured hair in dissipating heat. somehow.
i like smart women.
haha
Friday, May 07, 2004
Saturday, May 01, 2004
oh im going on deployment on monday. this exercise dats gonna last for 5 days, meaning i'll be out somewhere in the jungles(?) of singapore, wont be able to bathe and all dat.
lets see how its gonna be like.
anyways. dun know y i've been feeling quite down recently. well not really down, more... tensed up, i guess. more prone to sudden outbursts of anger.
perhaps its me thinking hey, you're not doing wat u want with ur life rite now. ur unit isnt letting u do dat. wat u've planned to accomplish hasnt been done.
in pamela's words, 'wat has army done to my kor'? (but oh i've finished my course long ago :P)
wat has army done to me???
lets see how its gonna be like.
anyways. dun know y i've been feeling quite down recently. well not really down, more... tensed up, i guess. more prone to sudden outbursts of anger.
perhaps its me thinking hey, you're not doing wat u want with ur life rite now. ur unit isnt letting u do dat. wat u've planned to accomplish hasnt been done.
in pamela's words, 'wat has army done to my kor'? (but oh i've finished my course long ago :P)
wat has army done to me???
Sunday, April 18, 2004
u know, sometimes i jus dun understand myself.
jus got out from camp today. had duty yesterday. had driving the whole afternoon. passed my FTT evaluation so will take the test on the 12th of may. and am jus 4 revision lessons away from the practical test.
anyways. had a string orch 'party' in the evening. all of the present string orch people went, together with 2 juniors of mine who had already graduated and 2 guys from my batch, mitch and me.
didnt really enjoy the whole 'party' thingy.
was quite bored lah. i jus felt so... detached from them, u know? couldnt even attempt to like make myself enjoy jus talking and chillin with them.
then i decided to go watch hellboy. by myself. yep. wasnt dat good a show, in my opinion.
and incurred the wrath of my mum. i like rejected 5? 6? of all calls while watching the movie. think she's gonna scream at me tomorrow morning.
and i dun care. u know? there are like so many WILD people my age who are like clubbing? drinking? going home at 6am in the morning?
and i have a mum who calls me at 1030pm. INCESSANTLY. damnit i know she cares but dun u think she's like jus paranoid? i mean come on, the more u restrict, the more im gonna rebel.
i am jus DAT close to breaking watever f***ing (implicit, unspoken) rules there are in my family.
yeah. shocking, huh? told u i dun even understand myself. dun know how and y i typed all those stuff out. but im not gonna retract them, 'cause watever i've written, it had to come from somewhere. in my heart/brain.
jus got out from camp today. had duty yesterday. had driving the whole afternoon. passed my FTT evaluation so will take the test on the 12th of may. and am jus 4 revision lessons away from the practical test.
anyways. had a string orch 'party' in the evening. all of the present string orch people went, together with 2 juniors of mine who had already graduated and 2 guys from my batch, mitch and me.
didnt really enjoy the whole 'party' thingy.
was quite bored lah. i jus felt so... detached from them, u know? couldnt even attempt to like make myself enjoy jus talking and chillin with them.
then i decided to go watch hellboy. by myself. yep. wasnt dat good a show, in my opinion.
and incurred the wrath of my mum. i like rejected 5? 6? of all calls while watching the movie. think she's gonna scream at me tomorrow morning.
and i dun care. u know? there are like so many WILD people my age who are like clubbing? drinking? going home at 6am in the morning?
and i have a mum who calls me at 1030pm. INCESSANTLY. damnit i know she cares but dun u think she's like jus paranoid? i mean come on, the more u restrict, the more im gonna rebel.
i am jus DAT close to breaking watever f***ing (implicit, unspoken) rules there are in my family.
yeah. shocking, huh? told u i dun even understand myself. dun know how and y i typed all those stuff out. but im not gonna retract them, 'cause watever i've written, it had to come from somewhere. in my heart/brain.
Saturday, April 10, 2004
realised i havent blogged for quite a while.
so here's an update of my life:
1. i've been posted to this ADA unit. but am attached to tengah medical centre. which basically means if my unit has any deployment/exercise, i'll go cover them, and i'll do duties there too, but most of the time i'll be spending my time at tengah. And doing duties there too. so overall, i'll have about 8 overnight duties a month.
2. i'm gonna stay-in for the next 2 weeks, cause these past two weeks i've been going out almost every night for rehearsals. yep y stay in? cause they want us to be familiar with the various situations / stuff we hafta do in case of emergencies. for example, when a plane encounters some serious problem. Which has happened already in this past week.
3. the concert on thurs was fine. ok lah i didnt play up to my own expectations but hey, it was a good concert in all. had some good friends go support me, not to mention my family. had a great dinner after dat with me family and got a sunflower from ayline. apparently they had wanted to give it to me at the end of the concert but had no chance to. oh man :(
4. still on the concert. i've jus found out dat mark's cousin is in choir. oh 'cause they performed a piece at the end together with us. and she said 'hi' to me on the final full dress rehearsal. gosh i didnt notice her (forgot her face lah) until she approached me. oh mAn!!!
5. no lah im not interested in her. wait i am. im interested in jus about any girl i meet now. including all the girls in string orch. yes although they're like 1 or 2 years younger than me.
not dat i would do anything about it. :P
and oh yah. mrs chung was like asking me, so why havent you got a girlfriend???
Hmm. maybe i Should get a girlfriend jus for the sake of having one huh? but. i cant be bothered to go after any girl lah. wait, make dat i dun Know how to go after any girl. and lack the self-confidence to.
yep, seriously.
oh and of course dere's always the excuse i give, im going abroad in 1 year (and 4 months) time so there's no point in getting a girlfriend is there? heh
oh and my life isnt jus all about girls now. i jus bought battlefield vietnam. good game. spent about 8 hours on it already.
and life in the medical centre... its ok lah. they're all nice people so yah, life's ok lah. ha dats from me Before staying in. ask me again after i've stayed in camp for a week.
and oh. i have ops duty tomorrow. and on next sat. so two weekends almost gone. damnit. there goes my chance to pass my final theory asap. oh wat do i do for ops duty? sit in a caustrophobic room and yah. stay in there all day. y? 'cause in case anything happens, i'll be the first to respond. hope nothing happens anytime soon.
so here's an update of my life:
1. i've been posted to this ADA unit. but am attached to tengah medical centre. which basically means if my unit has any deployment/exercise, i'll go cover them, and i'll do duties there too, but most of the time i'll be spending my time at tengah. And doing duties there too. so overall, i'll have about 8 overnight duties a month.
2. i'm gonna stay-in for the next 2 weeks, cause these past two weeks i've been going out almost every night for rehearsals. yep y stay in? cause they want us to be familiar with the various situations / stuff we hafta do in case of emergencies. for example, when a plane encounters some serious problem. Which has happened already in this past week.
3. the concert on thurs was fine. ok lah i didnt play up to my own expectations but hey, it was a good concert in all. had some good friends go support me, not to mention my family. had a great dinner after dat with me family and got a sunflower from ayline. apparently they had wanted to give it to me at the end of the concert but had no chance to. oh man :(
4. still on the concert. i've jus found out dat mark's cousin is in choir. oh 'cause they performed a piece at the end together with us. and she said 'hi' to me on the final full dress rehearsal. gosh i didnt notice her (forgot her face lah) until she approached me. oh mAn!!!
5. no lah im not interested in her. wait i am. im interested in jus about any girl i meet now. including all the girls in string orch. yes although they're like 1 or 2 years younger than me.
not dat i would do anything about it. :P
and oh yah. mrs chung was like asking me, so why havent you got a girlfriend???
Hmm. maybe i Should get a girlfriend jus for the sake of having one huh? but. i cant be bothered to go after any girl lah. wait, make dat i dun Know how to go after any girl. and lack the self-confidence to.
yep, seriously.
oh and of course dere's always the excuse i give, im going abroad in 1 year (and 4 months) time so there's no point in getting a girlfriend is there? heh
oh and my life isnt jus all about girls now. i jus bought battlefield vietnam. good game. spent about 8 hours on it already.
and life in the medical centre... its ok lah. they're all nice people so yah, life's ok lah. ha dats from me Before staying in. ask me again after i've stayed in camp for a week.
and oh. i have ops duty tomorrow. and on next sat. so two weekends almost gone. damnit. there goes my chance to pass my final theory asap. oh wat do i do for ops duty? sit in a caustrophobic room and yah. stay in there all day. y? 'cause in case anything happens, i'll be the first to respond. hope nothing happens anytime soon.
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
there was this seminar these two days. some service quality training thing. found out something about my personality.
i HATE not knowing my future.
jus got to know today dat tengah's a 24-hour med centre. i hafta stay-in.
dats ok u know. if dat guy didnt call last night and say he'd try asking OC to see if they can pull me back in. he was like so... uncomittal. i mean, damnit, if u want me to go back then say u want me lah! if u think i'm worth the trouble then DO something lah!!! f*** if u think im not worth the trouble then jus tell me straight in the face, i cant help u!!!! u jus dun give me false hope u know?
i feel like i've been f***ing betrayed. BETRAYED. yes, dat is the word. u jus DO NOT make empty promises to ME.
u know i've jus got EVERYTHING planned? take my driving test, go for rehearsals, perform, go to the US, resit for my SATs if i want to, take bass lessons, apply for uni... and oh yah go do community service...
argh.
i HATE not knowing my future.
jus got to know today dat tengah's a 24-hour med centre. i hafta stay-in.
dats ok u know. if dat guy didnt call last night and say he'd try asking OC to see if they can pull me back in. he was like so... uncomittal. i mean, damnit, if u want me to go back then say u want me lah! if u think i'm worth the trouble then DO something lah!!! f*** if u think im not worth the trouble then jus tell me straight in the face, i cant help u!!!! u jus dun give me false hope u know?
i feel like i've been f***ing betrayed. BETRAYED. yes, dat is the word. u jus DO NOT make empty promises to ME.
u know i've jus got EVERYTHING planned? take my driving test, go for rehearsals, perform, go to the US, resit for my SATs if i want to, take bass lessons, apply for uni... and oh yah go do community service...
argh.
Sunday, March 21, 2004
Sunday, March 14, 2004
to my friends :
if u dun find me very chatty this week, i'm sorry.
yah im not feeling that good.
u know i've realised something? u cant feel good in the army if u want to really perform well. i wasnt happy in bmt.
this week, according to my sarge, is gonna be the most xiong week of the course.
i say bring it on.
next week u'll find me a more cheerful person. Then, u'll find me back to myself again.
if u dun find me very chatty this week, i'm sorry.
yah im not feeling that good.
u know i've realised something? u cant feel good in the army if u want to really perform well. i wasnt happy in bmt.
this week, according to my sarge, is gonna be the most xiong week of the course.
i say bring it on.
next week u'll find me a more cheerful person. Then, u'll find me back to myself again.
Sunday, March 07, 2004
NEVER go to bishan swimming pool on sundays.
1. its damn crowded. with children learning how to swim.
2. the children swim damn fast.
3. its DAMN DIRTY!!!!!!!!!!!! i could see like mucus floating about in the pool lor!!!! Lots of mucus. and some stray hair too. wah kau!!!!
was like planning to swim there today and i gave up after one lap. too disgusted.
and oh yeah. i was so engrossed in my feeling disgusted dat i walked 300m, across this main road, without caring for anything else... when i noticed dat my fly was open.
and i realised i had jus ran across the road. quite jammed-up road, i must add.
*cringes in embarrassment*
aaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!
:(
1. its damn crowded. with children learning how to swim.
2. the children swim damn fast.
3. its DAMN DIRTY!!!!!!!!!!!! i could see like mucus floating about in the pool lor!!!! Lots of mucus. and some stray hair too. wah kau!!!!
was like planning to swim there today and i gave up after one lap. too disgusted.
and oh yeah. i was so engrossed in my feeling disgusted dat i walked 300m, across this main road, without caring for anything else... when i noticed dat my fly was open.
and i realised i had jus ran across the road. quite jammed-up road, i must add.
*cringes in embarrassment*
aaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!
:(
Thursday, March 04, 2004
did some real thorough area-cleaning today. wiped the tops of the cupboards, cabinets, behind/below the wooden cabinets, wiped (yes wiped, not mopped) the floor, swept the floor (yes wiped first, then swept, mistake lah), cleaned the electrical sockets/fittings, cleaned the lights... fans...
damn garang huh?
im real proud to say dat i was the one who inspired the whole bunk to participate in the spring-cleaning. while the other bunks were jus slacking.
heh.
*i feel good, dadadada...*
damn garang huh?
im real proud to say dat i was the one who inspired the whole bunk to participate in the spring-cleaning. while the other bunks were jus slacking.
heh.
*i feel good, dadadada...*
Sunday, February 29, 2004
finally watched lost in translation last night. inspired some thoughts on the bus home.
one was the lack of sex between the two main characters. in a typical hollywood movie the two of them would have like had passioniate sex jus before the guy departs right. but there's no sex! (awww - i can jus imagine my army pals going)
but i think its more true. u develop feelings for someone... like him/her... doesnt mean dat u Have to have sex with him/her rite.
but its not jus the sex i thought about lah. it sorta led me to how feelings can easily develop between us hopelessly romantic human beings.
but its how far we allow these feelings between us to go dat really matters, isnt it? im sure we have all liked a certain friend at a certain point in time, but not done anything about it.
y?
perhaps we're jus not ready to decide who we want to spend the rest of our lives with jus yet.
perhaps our widened social circle has exposed us to too many people we think are desirable. so we cant make up our minds.
haha perhaps dat explains the increasing number of chronic singles who date and date and date, and Still remain single. and of course the lack of babies in singapore. :(
one was the lack of sex between the two main characters. in a typical hollywood movie the two of them would have like had passioniate sex jus before the guy departs right. but there's no sex! (awww - i can jus imagine my army pals going)
but i think its more true. u develop feelings for someone... like him/her... doesnt mean dat u Have to have sex with him/her rite.
but its not jus the sex i thought about lah. it sorta led me to how feelings can easily develop between us hopelessly romantic human beings.
but its how far we allow these feelings between us to go dat really matters, isnt it? im sure we have all liked a certain friend at a certain point in time, but not done anything about it.
y?
perhaps we're jus not ready to decide who we want to spend the rest of our lives with jus yet.
perhaps our widened social circle has exposed us to too many people we think are desirable. so we cant make up our minds.
haha perhaps dat explains the increasing number of chronic singles who date and date and date, and Still remain single. and of course the lack of babies in singapore. :(
Sunday, February 22, 2004
had a great day yesterday.
really great day.
did a lot of stuff i'd never tried before. and found dat tanglin mall has quite a number of interesting shops.
and i cant finish 2 pints of beer in 90 mins.
or beat pamela at pool.
:P
but seriously. i'd miss a friend, a girl, who i can like jus meet and have fun with and not hafta worry about anything else. besides having to watch my tongue and not say statements dat might imply anything i dun mean haha.
yeah, keep in regular contact yah? by phone or email or MSN.
i'll never forget my two sisters.
and wun mind another one, to be honest. heh
really great day.
did a lot of stuff i'd never tried before. and found dat tanglin mall has quite a number of interesting shops.
and i cant finish 2 pints of beer in 90 mins.
or beat pamela at pool.
:P
but seriously. i'd miss a friend, a girl, who i can like jus meet and have fun with and not hafta worry about anything else. besides having to watch my tongue and not say statements dat might imply anything i dun mean haha.
yeah, keep in regular contact yah? by phone or email or MSN.
i'll never forget my two sisters.
and wun mind another one, to be honest. heh
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
oh yeah. been wanting to write this for some time now. put it down in my notebook but didnt get a chance to publish it on my blog until now. back when i was doing fire piquet, in fact.
this post is dedicated to my dad. i love him.
Dad drove me to camp today. woke me up too at 550 in the morning.
we didnt talk much during the trip to camp, as usual. i remember all he said was, "So, will you be able to come back this evening?"
I said "no."
We've never said much to each other, you know. he's like fetched me to and back from school... bmt... safti... now nee soon... aside from a few monologues about performing well, giving my best and consoling me when i got out of course from ocs and was real depressed... not a lot, actually.
but i think i have the best dad in the world.
haha sounds like some 5-year-old's proclamation rite?
but how often do you think about it, think about all the things your parents have done for you and appreciate them? thank them for what they've done for us?
perhaps i'll never say this to him (too shy lah), or my mum, too, for that matter.
but i love them. i really do.
this post is dedicated to my dad. i love him.
Dad drove me to camp today. woke me up too at 550 in the morning.
we didnt talk much during the trip to camp, as usual. i remember all he said was, "So, will you be able to come back this evening?"
I said "no."
We've never said much to each other, you know. he's like fetched me to and back from school... bmt... safti... now nee soon... aside from a few monologues about performing well, giving my best and consoling me when i got out of course from ocs and was real depressed... not a lot, actually.
but i think i have the best dad in the world.
haha sounds like some 5-year-old's proclamation rite?
but how often do you think about it, think about all the things your parents have done for you and appreciate them? thank them for what they've done for us?
perhaps i'll never say this to him (too shy lah), or my mum, too, for that matter.
but i love them. i really do.
'tis been a Reeeeal weird day today.
this morning my sergeant talked to us about relationships. some relationships he had and why he's single now. haha. yeah oops we were supposed to be training heh. dun tell! ^_^
but yeah. dun really wanna repeat wat he said. but i feel most of wat he mentioned is damn true. about trust and stuff.
Then somehow the topic turned to transvestites at orchard towers and changi village.
damn out of point rite???
but dat was ok lah. watched a video on POCM. some casualty management thingy. damn old. 1985. but anyways. someone suggested we watched band of brothers, the episode on the medic. episode 6. and we watched it for about 20 mins jus before we sent arms. heh and hey jem ah dun tell anyone about this k.
but anyways. then jus before booking out, this mrf sergeant screamed at my bunkmates for no reason. ok lah. he thought someone from our bunk shouted 'knees off the ground!' when he was punishing them. prob from platoon 4. but anyways. i resent the fact that when we said we were innocent, he was like, 'i don't care! get the person who shouted that down NOW!'.
f***ing bastard who prob cant even pass his ippt and/or get into sispec thinks he's so great and cant/wont admit his mistake. he's jus a pathetic sergeant lor. Local sergeant, may i humbly add. which makes him jus the same rank as me if he were to go into some other unit.
damnit, i wonder if he even Deserves the rank of a Cpl, he prob doesnt even f***ing know section movements and stuff.
yeah i f***ing HATE such people who 1. don't know their f***ing place in the army and 2. can't admit their mistakes. still makes my blood boil, jus thinking about it.
BUt then. i booked out. went to thomson plaza to buy a birthday present for my sis. and saw this damn chio girl. yeah i think she's Damn pretty i tell ya. not the conventional blonde-beyond-shoulder-length-hair-heavily-made-up-skinny-like-some-starved-ethiopian-and-acts-like-some-slut kinda pretty.
pretty pretty.
aww damn.
a few years ago i woulda said im in love. not too long ago i'd have said im now madly infatuated with her.
but the thing is today im like jus... admiring her beauty. yeah. not thinking about anything else. like wanting to be her boyfriend or sth.
now. i can only think of these few reasons y i dun feel anything.
1. i no longer believe in love at first sight.
2. i don't want to get attached for like jus a short while and break a girl's heart.
3. i know its my hormones that are like egging me on.
4. i have no confidence to go after any girl now.
5. i cant be Bothered to go after any girl now.
and Yet. im desperate for a girlfriend now.
interesting huh.
this morning my sergeant talked to us about relationships. some relationships he had and why he's single now. haha. yeah oops we were supposed to be training heh. dun tell! ^_^
but yeah. dun really wanna repeat wat he said. but i feel most of wat he mentioned is damn true. about trust and stuff.
Then somehow the topic turned to transvestites at orchard towers and changi village.
damn out of point rite???
but dat was ok lah. watched a video on POCM. some casualty management thingy. damn old. 1985. but anyways. someone suggested we watched band of brothers, the episode on the medic. episode 6. and we watched it for about 20 mins jus before we sent arms. heh and hey jem ah dun tell anyone about this k.
but anyways. then jus before booking out, this mrf sergeant screamed at my bunkmates for no reason. ok lah. he thought someone from our bunk shouted 'knees off the ground!' when he was punishing them. prob from platoon 4. but anyways. i resent the fact that when we said we were innocent, he was like, 'i don't care! get the person who shouted that down NOW!'.
f***ing bastard who prob cant even pass his ippt and/or get into sispec thinks he's so great and cant/wont admit his mistake. he's jus a pathetic sergeant lor. Local sergeant, may i humbly add. which makes him jus the same rank as me if he were to go into some other unit.
damnit, i wonder if he even Deserves the rank of a Cpl, he prob doesnt even f***ing know section movements and stuff.
yeah i f***ing HATE such people who 1. don't know their f***ing place in the army and 2. can't admit their mistakes. still makes my blood boil, jus thinking about it.
BUt then. i booked out. went to thomson plaza to buy a birthday present for my sis. and saw this damn chio girl. yeah i think she's Damn pretty i tell ya. not the conventional blonde-beyond-shoulder-length-hair-heavily-made-up-skinny-like-some-starved-ethiopian-and-acts-like-some-slut kinda pretty.
pretty pretty.
aww damn.
a few years ago i woulda said im in love. not too long ago i'd have said im now madly infatuated with her.
but the thing is today im like jus... admiring her beauty. yeah. not thinking about anything else. like wanting to be her boyfriend or sth.
now. i can only think of these few reasons y i dun feel anything.
1. i no longer believe in love at first sight.
2. i don't want to get attached for like jus a short while and break a girl's heart.
3. i know its my hormones that are like egging me on.
4. i have no confidence to go after any girl now.
5. i cant be Bothered to go after any girl now.
and Yet. im desperate for a girlfriend now.
interesting huh.
Sunday, February 15, 2004
Saturday, February 14, 2004
saw some stuff last night and this morning. ok people, rather.
while walking home saw this family in the park. old grandma in a wheelchair. maid looking bored. middle-aged couple jus relaxing with her. acs grandson walking home and greeted enthusiastically by his cute dog.
on the mrt there was this forlorn-looking lady holding a bouquet of flowers on the mrt. going back home, i should think.
at the jazz bar, i saw this girl furtively writing... notes? diary entries? a v-day card? on these pieces of tissue paper.
and oh yah. the bassist of the band was playing a 5-string bass. some guy from creative. nice guitar, man. damn nice.
oh yeah this morning i saw two couples. and a father with his daughter. these two couples. one was like my age. both guy and girl. the other was this rather old couple. old grandfather-like figure with a crutch and his wife supporting him.
made me think about stuff. relationships. no not just guy-girl relationships. musician-audience relationships. grandparent-grandchild relationships. parent-child relationships. u know, the like.
its interesting, u know, what you can see around you when you really observe. take time to 'smell the roses', they say.
while walking home saw this family in the park. old grandma in a wheelchair. maid looking bored. middle-aged couple jus relaxing with her. acs grandson walking home and greeted enthusiastically by his cute dog.
on the mrt there was this forlorn-looking lady holding a bouquet of flowers on the mrt. going back home, i should think.
at the jazz bar, i saw this girl furtively writing... notes? diary entries? a v-day card? on these pieces of tissue paper.
and oh yah. the bassist of the band was playing a 5-string bass. some guy from creative. nice guitar, man. damn nice.
oh yeah this morning i saw two couples. and a father with his daughter. these two couples. one was like my age. both guy and girl. the other was this rather old couple. old grandfather-like figure with a crutch and his wife supporting him.
made me think about stuff. relationships. no not just guy-girl relationships. musician-audience relationships. grandparent-grandchild relationships. parent-child relationships. u know, the like.
its interesting, u know, what you can see around you when you really observe. take time to 'smell the roses', they say.
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