there was this seminar these two days. some service quality training thing. found out something about my personality.

i HATE not knowing my future.

jus got to know today dat tengah's a 24-hour med centre. i hafta stay-in.

dats ok u know. if dat guy didnt call last night and say he'd try asking OC to see if they can pull me back in. he was like so... uncomittal. i mean, damnit, if u want me to go back then say u want me lah! if u think i'm worth the trouble then DO something lah!!! f*** if u think im not worth the trouble then jus tell me straight in the face, i cant help u!!!! u jus dun give me false hope u know?

i feel like i've been f***ing betrayed. BETRAYED. yes, dat is the word. u jus DO NOT make empty promises to ME.

u know i've jus got EVERYTHING planned? take my driving test, go for rehearsals, perform, go to the US, resit for my SATs if i want to, take bass lessons, apply for uni... and oh yah go do community service...

argh.

so the week has passed.
turned out to be damn slack sia. ok compared to wat i've been through lah.

to my friends :

if u dun find me very chatty this week, i'm sorry.
yah im not feeling that good.
u know i've realised something? u cant feel good in the army if u want to really perform well. i wasnt happy in bmt.
this week, according to my sarge, is gonna be the most xiong week of the course.
i say bring it on.

next week u'll find me a more cheerful person. Then, u'll find me back to myself again.

NEVER go to bishan swimming pool on sundays.
1. its damn crowded. with children learning how to swim.
2. the children swim damn fast.
3. its DAMN DIRTY!!!!!!!!!!!! i could see like mucus floating about in the pool lor!!!! Lots of mucus. and some stray hair too. wah kau!!!!

was like planning to swim there today and i gave up after one lap. too disgusted.

and oh yeah. i was so engrossed in my feeling disgusted dat i walked 300m, across this main road, without caring for anything else... when i noticed dat my fly was open.
and i realised i had jus ran across the road. quite jammed-up road, i must add.
*cringes in embarrassment*
aaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!
:(

did some real thorough area-cleaning today. wiped the tops of the cupboards, cabinets, behind/below the wooden cabinets, wiped (yes wiped, not mopped) the floor, swept the floor (yes wiped first, then swept, mistake lah), cleaned the electrical sockets/fittings, cleaned the lights... fans...
damn garang huh?
im real proud to say dat i was the one who inspired the whole bunk to participate in the spring-cleaning. while the other bunks were jus slacking.
heh.
*i feel good, dadadada...*